Thursday, May 27, 2010

Full Moon - Thursday 27th of May

Full Moon May 27th

Is the world coming to an end or is it just beginning. Beginning of a new cycle of a new time. A consciousness that is awakening up all our neighbors. Soon one will walk down the street dressed in full colors of rainbow light, body art, piercing, and a canvas of art work and will not be stared at. Instead looked at as a brother, as a sister, as all one human kind. Soon we wont be stared at for being different because we will be coming together into one race at this crucial time in this very moment of life. Soon my meditations, my prayers, my positive vibrations of light will reach yours. Circles of light warriors manifesting heaven will awaken those asleep. Vibrations of peace and love cannot be darkened and overcome. We who walk on the path of light spread as our groups grow. We can reach masses of groups to open up their minds faster than darkness will ever possibly. For in a darkened space, light can be created but in a light space can darkness occur… There are world catasphores coming, they have already begun. Earthquakes, tsunamis, cyclones… They are occurring more and more ever since this age of awareness has begun to stir. Yet do not be confused, they are not created by awareness, but from darkness of humans. Global warming is not creating by the Earth, yet by the destruction humans have caused to mama earth. We are the blame, not our planet. We are the blame to the recent catastrophes this past year. Humans, Scientists, Dark Greedy beings far from light have been messing with the weather in science experiments. Trying to create a true world power of weapon… HARP Yet there are side appects. Those beings that are creating hide away for when the world comes tumbling down wont be so safe as they think. Only prayer, thought, and positive vibrations can save us now. Only thro disaster though, will most of human kind come together… I fear so. Thus I am ready for this change. For what has already begun. For the next few years of chaos. I tell my brothers and sisters to stop wasting time in daily jobs and Uni or School. Will these kinds of things prepare you for what is coming? Teach you how to live truly off the earth, just like in the beginning. To become savages, wild beings living off the land. Thanking Mama Earth for what she gives us. Killing and sacrificing animals for food. Are you ready for this? If not, you shouldn’t be eating meat. Are you ready to be one with the dirt, leaves, grasses, and sands…? And live one on one with Pacha Mama. Prepare yourselves, this is that time. The shamans and Ancients, the Wise Ones have released their Secrets, their Prophets, the possible future…So are you going to turn your back on that and go back to your daily job and emptiness. Or listen, wake up your mind and spirit to the new world that is coming.

It thunder and stormed last night just like the past five nights in a row. How strange, it is only May. The rainy season here shouldn’t start till July. A month early and shoulders shrug. Confusion is swept away and conversation ends. It is forgotten. The fact is that we are seeing changes, not just here, but all over the world. Did winter come early this year for you, or These are slight changes that most brush away, yet if you open up your eyes just a bit more, you will begin to notice the change. Notice the climate changes and think about them, if you do, you might just be more prepared. Prepared for what is to come, the change that will be much more dramatic in 2012. The signs Mama Earth are sending us with all these world chatasaphores. Tears and anger of what we have done to her and what we still are doing.

In Mexico I am jumping back and forth from such extreme opposites. I am on the road, synchronicity and faith in Pacha Mama always gives me a place to stay and food to eat. I am in a more clear state of who I am becoming and I realize what my Spirit is more comfortable with. What it needs and wants. Often I am camping, out in the open. I stopped using my tent, sleep under the stars, beside a tree, one with the earth. This is who I am. This is the natural rhythm of life of Mama Earth. I am her child, dirty, swimming in her oceans of trees, forests and animal life… And now I am in a clean house, white sheets and blankets, a bed. Kitchen, electricity, plumbing, what a strange wwoof experience. A reminder to not get drawn into luxury, habits of how humans grow up today. For I am not amongst your kind anymore, I am a Forest Fae, who loves the Earth and feels the natural rhythms of life that most have forgotten. I am becoming one with everything, with Pacha Mama.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Gibbous Moon - Saturday 22nd of May

Gibbous Moon – May 22nd

Destination: Tepoztlan (Home to Aztec Serpent God – Quetzalcoatl and alternative spiritual community)

Arrival no place to stay, yet on the street a young women comes up to me and asks if I want to camp at her place.
I spent all my money right when I arrived in a Crystal Magical Kingdom. Crystals are so magnetic; they just drew me into the store.
Thus I was without any money till the New Moon (twice a month I am trying to allow myself take out money I have saved) 10 days…
Yet when you ask for what you need, the Earth provides you it. I am learning this. Learning this more without the abundance of paper, of our concept of currency. I am a creative child of Earth. I am always making something with my hand, creating beauty. And this is how I shall travel, by selling my Artsanias – Crafts. I am digging into my roots. My gypsy trail of past is whirling in winds; in circles around my Red Road I walk here. I am not a rich American, another tourist here on vacation nor am I a European backpacker. I am an Artisan, Artist selling her makes on the road, earning something to eat and finding a sacred piece of land to sleep for free, just like it should be. I smile every time I think of myself, of who I am becoming. Are you proud of the road you walk? You should be, if not, change it. We have all the power in the world. We are the actors in our plays, we are the directors, and we are the writers. We manifest our heavens on Earth. And that is what I am doing will journeying this Beautiful, ever ending Red Road of Spirit. I see the changes within myself and I smile and breath. This is not Ego talking. This is me, knowing who I am and being proud. Who is ready for this life I ask. Who wants to join me living life day to day? Not knowing where you are going to sleep. Knowing it’s got to be free for you have no money. And asking mama earth to provide you some sacred water and nourishment to keep on journeying towards this ever ending spiral of enlightment.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

First Quarter Moon - Thursday 20th of May

1st Quarter Moon – May 20th
Destination: DF (Mexico City) Districto Fedral
I am spending these last few days in one the biggest cities of the world. At first I said, No, I am not going there. Yet I expanded my mind, remembered a lot of awake minds live in cities, that’s where consciousness can begin, and thus I am here. Here and far away from our Earth Mother. How can anyone stay connected to her while living within a cage of cement and pollution I ask? The ever speeding fast vibration of gotta get to my job on time, dressed in fancy black and white suits, hair pulled back, and brief case. I am defiantly on a different pace. A pace that now even has a hard time adapting within City walls… whole time im screaming to get out. There are so many less revelations inspired by nature and when being alone when constantly other city dwellers and concretes skyscrapers sucking away all light, natural vibes we call mama earth surround you. I have been caught up in this world, danced in it till dawn, worked in it from am to pm… yet never again. Where will these people go when the earth starts falling apart? When cities start crumbling. When Mama Earth is so sick that she begins to die, taking us along with her. Think about it, can humans live without water, food, animals, trees, and nature? No, and if you believe so, go try it on another planet why don’t you, instead of wreaking the one we have now. I realize more and more the importance of moving far away from cities, from vast populations and instead running into the forests of Eden with my sisters and brothers, Star Children of our Earth Mother.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Cresent Moon - Monday 17th of May

Crescent Moon – May 18th

I am hitchhiking and on the road again. Mind changing where I am going to go and end up every five minutes. Letting the breeze fly me where I am supposed to go. At the last moment I decided to go all the way to Mexico City. Luckily my hitchin partner did as well. And we both finally got there. Being a woman can really make you feel week sometimes and hitchhiking is one of those times. In the past, in Asia I enjoyed the rush of getting a ride with a stranger yet now I am older and wiser. Road is time, meaning years and I have been on a lot of roads. Meaning I am actually ancient almost. Now I know being a women hitching alone, isn’t so cool. One day though, I see and manifest a world where that is possible. Where I can walk up to a door and ask to sleep there. When I am hungry, someone will offer me a plate. This world is coming; it’s the one you have to believe in if you want it to ever manifest. Holding in Negative thoughts keeps you grounded in a low level of vibration and you eventually get stuck there, going deeper and deeper, into the darkness. Is that where you want to go? Or rather higher into the realms of light and positive vibrations, where change is the only reality to where we are today.

14th, 15th, 16th of May
Huichol Ceremony of Maiz (Corn)
Cermonia de Tehijno
Santa Maria Del Oro (Volcanic Lake Crater)

Huichols are Indians who today still live by their traditions that follow our Earth Mother. Pacha Mama en enspanol. They are the visionaries and wise spirits that work with the medicine of the desert and thus are the only legal ones to cut peyote and eat it.
I stayed with a Huichol family here in Santa Maria Del Oro during this time to celebrate and be part of their Ceremony of Maiz and celebrate their staple crop and source of food. During these 3 days we only consumed corn. We ate blue corn tamales (nothing were inside so they were not that good as you might imagine), fire toasted corn kernels, and Tehijno (most important). Tehijno is a fermented corn alcohol. They make it by a constant 24 hours of stirring a huge pot of con over open flame, then another 3 plus days of sun soaking fermentation… Yummy, not quit…Yet we were outsiders, guests invited into their family (quit large) ceremony and had to drink it every round it was offered (which was continuously) and by the end of the second day (when the drinking began, around 10 am) we were bit tipsy. Which led to a clash of Mexican culture and Indian Huichol, throwing in Bachata Music and Dance for the rest of the night. It was a real interesting few days. I experienced such a vast clash of these two cultures within the family. Such extremes of culture and tradition to modern brain wash life of no values.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

New Moon - Thursday 13th of May

New Moon – May 13th
Destination: Chacala Beach, Nayarit

I am back on the beach, where I began this journey in Mexico. Here for a few days to soak up the sun, eat off the raw fire, and watch the New Moon change the tides and sea life as a new 28 day cycle begins. I sleep under the moon in my hammock, cook under the moon on a campfire, and sing songs of earth to the New Moon.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Balsamic Moon-Saturday 8th of May

Balsamic Moon – May 8th
Destination: Santa Maria Del Oro
I have found my caravan, the gypsy wagon that is going to take me across Mexico. I wanna paint a large Tree of Life on the back of it and really let the shanty, hippie life begin. We are a crew of 7 spirits, flying high together. Raising each others vibrations, exchanging them, expanding them. We have an Oso y Aigula amongst us, a Bear and an Eagle. They have followed us here from the Vision Quest. They are powerful energies, mixing, vibrating, and expanding ours. We are a tribe of mix souls, coming from different lands, but in the end, we all come from the Stars. Thus I don’t need to say more. I can’t even begin to describe in words that energy that was within us all. The oneness, the love. You know those moments, those happiest of pure ecstasy. Well that was one of them, yet it was constant. For that is what we are all reaching for, constant ecstasy, no? Yet like often, this came to and end too. The Animals left the group, the caravan owner and pal ditches us with out word, and I was left with 2 gypsies, faerie sisters. One of these sisters I had met before, on a beach called Yelapa. All of us Artisanas, Artists. We spent the rest of our time together selling and creating creations and selling on the street, restraints, and fairs. Then sadly I said goodbye to them to and was left all alone. Everyone had his or her own road to take, and mine was not in the same direction…

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Last Quarter Moon-Wednesday 5th of May

Last Quarter Moon-May 5th

Last day of the magical vision Quest. Las Lobas, the Wolf Women came down from their ¨Mountain Top¨. They came down from 3 nights and 3 days, on Wednesday morning. In song and parade procession they blindedly entered back in civilization and straight into a Tamascal. They were not to see anyone before they were finally cleansed within the sweat lodge and after about and hour of joyous women unity they came out and greeted family and friends. And shortly after the Quest ended. Throwing the women back into the speedy world head on. In my mind, not even giving enough time to come to understand their visions and thoughts they had while away in conclusion. Yet I suppose some were not so ready to leave and those were the ones who went back into Ixtlan del Rio, to Uncle Bear ¨Tio Oso¨ Casa. There was another, last Tamascal that evening. There I was with a group of women, sisters I strongly connected with the last 5 days and a group of Brother Eagles and Bears. There we shared our experiences, The Wolf women of theirs up on the mountains and ours below, sending love and positive vibrations to seek out their visions and discover their paths.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Disseminating Moon-Monday 3rd of May

Disseminating Moon – May 3rd
Destination: Ixtlan Del Rio, Nayarit
Busqe de Vision – Clan de Lobas y los clanes de Oso y Aigula
Vision Quest – Wolf Women Clan and Bear and Eagle Clan

Immediately from the desert I traveled southwest to the state of Nayarit. Here a friend, an Oso – Bear invited me to a vision quest. It was a 5-day Quest only. More traditional in way to how they were created. And the visioners (busqadores) were only women, the Wolf Clan. Unfortunately I couldn’t quest as well, along with them as at least a 6-month preparation was necessary. Yet as I was to learn latter, even as much as I loved this group of people in this Quest, it is not my place to seek visions. Along with the Wolf Clan, there were the Eagle and Bear clan of men who are joined with the Wolf Clan. In August the Men quest and the women run camp. Yet, here in now, I spent 5 days meeting wonderful spirits all on the Red Road. We sang songs, songs, and more songs together. Singing to the Questers, sending them love and energy to continue on their quest. There were sweat lodges, Tamascales every day, occasionally twice as there were some just women tamascales. There was the sacred fire that was lit throughout the time there and a group of animal warriors, light warriors, earth warriors. We sung and dance from the beginning. The first night there was a traditional group of Mexica dancers who performed in full indigenous costumes of leather and feather wears, and danced while telling stories of past. This was a view into the past, of what once was and what now is not. Yet what is being restored as the time is changing and we are completing the circle of life? As well the Bear Clan performed their traditional Dance with Bear Hide. This was the second time I saw them, the first at the Spring Equinox Gathering I was at. Though it was just as powerful as the first time. And their songs reaching even further and deeper within, waking up my spirit and past lives. Their songs, drum beats, rhythm of natural sounds poured out in unity each night around sacred Abuelito – Fire. Those were some of the most powerful words I have ever heard, sung in this lifetime. They have woken up the Indigenous, Indian Women that I am, once was, and will be. The drum of mother earth’s heartbeat is waking up lost souls. Taking Spirits to follow the Red Road once again. Spreading Earth Mothers Messages.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Full Moon - Wednesday 28th of April

Full Moon – 28th of April
Destination: Wirikuta Desert. Wadley, Real Catorce, San Luis Potozi

The Desert winds of Wirikuta have been calling me. Like most on the Red Road it does. It even talks to backpackers and once in a while to tourists. What talks is not normally the sands, cactus, snakes, or even the Unesco village of Real Catorce, no its something called Abuelito. Grandfather Medicine. The Indians know it as Hikuri. Westerns believe it as a drug. Those who take it know it as medicine, a plant, Peyote. A medicine that opens the door up, your heart expands, and inner wisdom realizes. It teaches you more about yourself, who you are, your path, and about Mother Nature. It can send some with many lessons to learn on dark journeys across unknown, scary night desert land. It can as well do nothing; cause no effects to those who are not ready to take it. Or who are scared of it. Those who are ready for it, will journey. I was defiantly ready this time. I came to the desert for the Full moon. For a 3 day period around the full moon, where the earth energies are higher. It was a Beltane Full Moon as well. There were to be a lot of energy floating around. And I came with a friend, without a plan, only a thought that it would all come together and of course it did. On our way out into the desert, we met a small group from Guadalajara City and were invited to join them on a piece of land a friend owned. And thus our journey began as we climbed down on the roof of a jeep from Real into Estacion Catorce and later in the desert. The day we arrived, the day before the full moon I joined the others and immediately immersed myself into the desert, alone and in search of a small cactus that is constantly disappearing more and more (as more like me, and I like to think more who unconsciously use it, as I was consciously as possible consuming it go out and illegally harvest this hallgenic cactus). Along with my medicine bag in hand, drum, rattle and a bottle of water and the sun still somewhat high, I stumbled in different directions into the Corazon, heart of the desert. I sat down not so far away from our campsite and began my journey in Wirikuta with a ceremony towards Abuelito. I created a small fire, fuegata to ask the Desert for his Medicine to come towards me. I sang him chants and songs of Pacha Mama. Lit candles and sacrificed water, tobacco, flowers, cedar, and copal into the fire. And from there I began my real search of Hikuri. After an hour of anticipation, hunger for it, and nervousness about finally discovering it I was getting tired. I didn’t know if I was looking too hard or not enough. I had consumed it before, yet never harvested it myself. Thus was in general unsure of how it would play out. Finally a bird flew towards my direction. A humble, simple, divine creature and landed on top of a tall cactus tree (Joshua tree). I looked at it, acknowledged it, and read it as a sign in the vast empty desert land. I was to follow it. Yet it was still, and thus I was still and waited, patiently. Until it flew off in another direction. There was a wire fence in that direction that I wasn’t so eager to cross under or over and onto someone else’s land. Yet that is where the bird went and thus I decided to go on. Once under and over and a spin to clear off dirt and focus where I was, I was given Abuelito. He decided it was time. I listened to his totem, watched and heard the desert speak. And thus in return he gave me his gift, Wirikuta gave me Hikuri. My first peyote button. I was joyous. I took out my medicine bag and drum and started singing songs and sacrificing tobacco to the cactus as I cut it. I cleaned it there, as how I was taught, told. And slowly searched on and discovered more and more. Searching for families, so that I could take just one or two from them and leave some behind to continue to grow and flourish into the future. As the sun set I was in a hot spot that hadn’t been touched for a long time. More and more went into my medicine bag. Egos playing with me, saying take more, while my humility said that was enough. And finally as the sun had set, I journeyed back to our camp. Well, after I had eaten a few cloves off of one of the buttons. And at camp I finished cleaning, handling them with thankfulness and as the moon rose I hoped to begin my journey that night, yet had a strong feeling it was not time or place. Thus I went to bed with a headache yet lucid dreams all night.
The day of the full moon I woke up feeling that I needed to start journing. My plan was to journey 3 days, the highest power days, the full moon. Yet I didn’t feel right in the campground we were at or with my friend. I felt this needed to be an individual journey alone and more dissolute. Thus I walked from our campsite to a distant (still in view) tree where I decided there I was going to build a Rainbow Medicine Wheel. This was my second time building a sacred circle of meditation. The first was my first few weeks here in Mexico on the beach with my two sister Goddesses. Yet here I was to do it alone and quickly. I rushed thro the Ancient Native American tradition, speeding it up yet still putting love and energy into each rock I painted with different lessons and medicines. Around the tree I created a circle of 4 directions and there I was to sit and sleep, in the east, in Spirit. And that afternoon I began my own Vision Quest. One that I could carry out with my own rules and my own special place. I went out into the desert to journey and vision, with the help of medicine, yet without food, yet with water. And there I was for 2 days, fasting, eating peyote, and becoming one with the Earth. I journeyed two days, eating more than I should have (recommended to eat around 12 cloves or 2 buttons (button should have 8 cloves, yet some are misformed and some babies to grandfathers in size) and I thought that meant to journey well you should eat around 4 buttons. And that’s how it began, the second day with 5 buttons. Which equaled more like 30 to 40 cloves…And that’s how much the Huichol Indians eat, who have been doing it for decades) and thus my stomach refusing so much and vomiting it up. Yet the hole time I sunk deeper and deeper within. With in to the dirt, into the earth. I became one with the tree, flies, insects, dirt, desert. My skin changed color; I became camoploged with Pacha Mama. And I smiled and rested. Never leaving my Medicine Circle, for I thought a true peyote ceremony should be within, and in a sacred place and not lost out in the desert, roaming and encountering extra terrials or dark creatures. There I fasted, yet drank water and ate one after another. Becoming more and more disgusted with the flavor truthfully. And to be honest, my visions were not as expected. Yet when are they? Why have expectations… And thus my idea that the journey would be quit like Ayahuasca and the same in my dear relationship with her, I was quit misguided. For my idea of Peyote being Earthy and feminine I am told are wrong. Those go along with Ayahuasca and Peyote is Masculine and Airy. My teachings were less that I thought, my visions were not vibrant hullinations, yet subtle messages that I can see more clearly now. And with this 2 day journey I became more earthy and more one with our mama earth. More than I already was. I accepted the bugs and insects as brothers and sisters. I sank down into the heart of the desert, into Pacha Mama…
Yet my journey ended quit quickly late afternoon, the second day in (I was planning on coming back to earth from space that early evening) and I was woken up from my dreams as I lay flat face into the earth in my medicine circle, back to reality. A reality that I chose to ignore. I create my own bubble of reality within the reality of the rest of the world. The world of danger, of darkness, of a duality. My positive forest, nature girl outlook on life was being tested. A test to wake up to the darkness that exists as well. That there cant just be light, there must be darkness as well, a balance. A police man approached me, woke me up, startled me from slumber and in a daze I slowly became aware of the situation and tried to hid the last peyote button that I couldn’t finish in the mortar and pestle and cover it up with a scarf. He was quick; he was there for a reason. He didn’t see my medicine circle, he didn’t see my sacred fire in front of me, my crystals, my drum, my vision quest that I was on. He saw a gringo, he saw money and he saw the law that it was illegal to cut peyote. Thus the new journey, lesson began. He knew what I was there for and found the peyote in the mortar and found my hidden stash in a crevice of the tree I sat at. He entered my sacred circle without permission and brought an end to the sacred energies there. He woke me up from my visions and asked me questions. I lied, I stumbled, I lied, and in the end I told the truth. And they said I had to come with them. I was like ok; this is a new experience, jail for a few days. A lesson of Abuelito, interesting. Yet he said, years if I was lucky. My Spanish was off at the point; language didn’t exist where I was journing. After what felt like and hour of harassment towards our group, they left with a bribe from each of us. I gave them the rest of the money I had, it was a lot I felt. My friend gave them a bit, even though they found nothing on him, and our Mexican friends forgot to hide their tea… Thus our journeys turned and a lesson from Wirikuta. My fast ended when the cops left, and my journey lessened and the next day as the sun just began to rise we all left the cactus behind and back into a reality of what human kind has created and want all to believe is the unique and only one reality that exists and that is possible. Yet I know, even with abuelitos teachings, that my reality is possible. I can live in what I create and manifest, I can live apart, yet I do need to realize duality and the balance of darkness and light.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Gibbous Moon-Friday 23rd of April

Gibbous Moon – April 23rd
Destination: Huasteca Mountains

Four intense days of travel thro the Huasteca mountain range. A less traveled area, yet unfortunately was there for the weekend and thus hit Mexican high end tourism… Creating not the most beautiful experience, yet still worthwhile. I spent 4 days in green mountains and sacred water. Hot, hot days traveling to meet up with my German friend Mathias and visit the most popular sights. Leaving Mexico City I went to Xilitla, where I visited Las Pozas, El Castillo, James Edward Surrealist artist and architecture left an unfinished Labyrinth of a castle. Which was the most magical structure and place ive ever been and dreamt the hole time of living there in a community of Gods and Goddesses. From there I went to Aquisimon and met a group of young artists in the plaza and hung out with them for the day. That late afternoon we went up to Sotano de las Golondrinas to witness a magical work of nature and animals. A cave, a cavern the biggest and deepest in the world where thousands of birds, la golondrina and others fly into and return at sunset and fly out of to leave at sunrise everyday. There I witnessed this, as you may have on the documentary from BBC – Planet Earth (caves) that shows the birds and base jumpers entering into the cave. I met my friend here and stayed with a local family and the next morning went down to witness the sunrise spectular. Bit touristy but a real magic of nature. We hitched to La Morena and then to Tamul waterfall, where we went on a very touristy few km canoe ride to the biggest waterfall in Las Huatecas. Along with our boozing boat mates, we hitched with them to Ciudad Valles for dinner and then stayed with one of them in Tamasopo. It was a challenging day of contrasting energies and extremely different characters. The next morning we went and saw our last touristy waterfall and from there left the tourist scene to the barren desert.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

First Quarter Moon-Wednesday 21st of April

First Quarter Moon – April 21st
Destination: Xico, Xelapa Bus Station, DF (Mexico City)

Plans when on the road can change abruptly and rapidly and repeatedly when on the road. And with me it is common. Especially today, a day of constant change of plans and waiting to see if they would all play out as I thought they should and were meant to.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Cresent Moon-Monday 19th of April

Crescent Moon – April 19th
Destination: Xico

Alone along the River, left behind. I sit and ponder and learn of lessons by the river. Understand my emotions and how it feels to be excluded. To understand my past and growing as a child into the adult I am now. To understand what I am still going thro and learning and how to overcome it. Letting go of ego, giving into humility. I feel like a child, at this time, left out. I am still a child, who does feel left out in life when the ego wants to play. Poor me. Yet the river is constant, keeps flowing, the sound and rhythm never stopping. Siddhartha had many lessons by a river. I am learning by this river, right outside the doorsteps here in Xico. It is calming, soothing, and constant. Always here and always providing. I listen and learn River, thank you for your teachings. I will be back again soon.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

New Moon-Wednesday 14th of April

New Moon – April 14th
Destination : Xico, Vera Cruz

I up and changed my plans in a moment’s time. Leaving the Vision Quest I came back to Teresa’s farm in San Miguel for a night to talk with Teresa about the quest and see Mathias. Yet I had plans to meet Naima in Guanajauto, capital city of the state, less than 2 hours away. Thus I got there, checked my email to see where she was. And found out she changed her plans, our plans and was leaving tomorrow. And once I met with her, I decided that instant that I would too. It was a simple decision as I went with what felt naturally right. We hitched across Mexico to Vera Cruz in one long day of travel. We went to meet a friend of hers who works and travels with horses. Now we are here and our dreams are becoming reality. Two years ago I heard about a traveling horse caravan. Two years ahead I am in the presence. One-year time I might be part of it. Dreams are really happening. You can create anything in your life, manifest your reality and your dreams. This is an example, that I thought wasn’t ever a possible reality, yet now it’s more than reality. It is going to happen. Manifest what you want, it will come to you.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Balsamic Moon-Thursday 8th of March

Balsamic Moon : Thursday 8th of March

Vision Quest
The quest ended on Saturday the 10th. On Friday 4 Buscedores (Questers) came down from their 13 day Vision Quest. They were celebrated with crowns of flowers, flower paths, and another Medicine Cermony that night. This cermony was greater and much more powerful for me. The medicine worked stronger, as i was more ready. Truthfully i felt i was thrown into this Quest with so many rules that i had no idea of. It took me a week to learn what was going on and what i should and shouldnt do. As well to get to know the people and feel like they were family as they were always talking about. And as i came out of this incredible experience that had indeed changed my life, i still have alot of critisism about it all. And in end i have realized it is just not my place. I didnt understand that until leaving. I couldnt register why the Madrina and in general 'la familia' there were not connecting. And flatly it was that i felt no powerful energy coming from them. I didnt feel a sacred energy, a connection with them nor the land. I didnt feel at home as they were stating it was for everyone. I felt words were spoken and ideals stated, yet points missing. We were on sacred land and on sacred journies, yet it was filled with chain Malborou smokers, coca cola drinkers, and meat eaters. Was i the only one seeing the huge disconnection, the controdicition they were living. Talking to Spirit, yet consuming hurtful products to our Mama Earth. Companies and ideas that have ruled the world this last cycle and have been part of the destruction to the planet. I was within a community of souls on their paths, on the Red Road, but terribly misguided by society and daily life. Many Questers came to this Quest straight from Mexico City (one of the largest cities in the world) filled with mixtures of different energies that come with cities and immediatly, with a coke in hand ¨climbed the mountain¨(very contradtictory as they were literally only 10 minutes from our camp) and put themselve head on in this Vision Quest. What was their reason? Truth be told, it was the thing, the ¨fashion¨that is spreading thro Mexico. Vision Quest are becoming more and more common and more different walks of life are coming upon them. Which is great, yet are they ready with a coke in one hand and a greasy, meaty taco in the other? Are they here to become quickly enlightened? Did our ancestors use the Vision Quest in this way? NO! A quest is a sacred journey on your on, Alone, and you must go into Mother Nature and find a location that speaks to your Spirit, to your Heart; a power spot. And from there go on your own journey within, without food or water for 2 days. And as much as i enjoyed, learned, and basked in the beauty here, i couldnt help but feel disconnected. Disconnected from the land and the people. Yet these are my thoughts, my feelings, and i am thankful if this time really did give some clear vision to those who needed it. As for now, i will continue alone on my Red Road and when i am ready i will go on my own Vision Quest, at a power spot, and have visions for myself and Mother Earth

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Last Quarter Moon - Tuesday 6th of April

Last Quarter Moon : April 6th
Vision Quest

*Feeding the Fire lunch (when preparing lunch for everyone, a small plate of food was brought to the tipi and fed to the fire - feeding the Questers thro Spriit)
*Keeping the fire going constantly. It is the warmth of the Questers. Somebody always was in the tipi, maintaing and watching the fire for the hole 2 weeks
*Also each day making and changing a design in the fire. A design made by the coals. Such as an eagle, rainbow, 4 directions cross...
*Sunrise around 7am. We were woken up after 6:30am by a subtle beat of a drum and singing/chanting by someone each morning. And from there we met outside the tipi to sing to the four directions and the Questers on the Mountain (they could hear us, they were not that far away) We were sending them love and strenght 'fuerza'
*Sunset Salut as well to the four directions with Medicine songs, rattles, and drums
*Sacared herbs and medicines (tobacco, cedar, flowers...) were always in baskets around the fire in the lodge for offerings when entering or leaving
*Tobacco was smoked in corn husks and was sacred
*Logs on fire wer set in a criss cross pattern, repersenting an arrow towards the design made of coals, to the alter, and to the center of the tipi (where the Madrina always sat)
*Grandfather 'Abuelito' Fire
*Thanks was given to each meal we ate before hand and the food was made by all
*Community work was shared amongst all
*Tamascal (sweatlodges) were run once a day
*nightly cermonies (often yet not every night were run) ranging in just talking, planning, to a traditional Guatemalan baby shower where there was large cauldron/cast iron pot where coals and a vast variety of herbs, spice, and medicines were thrown into it and stirred up to celebrate the soon to be mama and cooking up her life
*Women had to wear skirts within the tipi and cermony area, while men had to wear pants

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Dissementing Moon - Saturday 3rd of April

Dissementing Moon - Saturday 3rd of April

Vision Quest - Rosa Grande - Outside Morelia in the mountains in the state of Michocan

A vision quest is a journey one takes atleast once in their life. Its a journey thro nature, into solitude, to be one with nature and the 4 legged brother and sisters of ours. Once there, you journey into medition for a set amount of time. Normally starting with 3 days. You create a sacred circle to stay within and fast. Drinking only water and staying put in place to recive visions from Great Spirit, Great Grandfather and Grandmother of Earth, Sky, Fire, and Water. Dreams, Animals, and Visions come to you, to give you messages of why you are here, what your road is in life. Some Quests are done to give back energy to Mama Earth. We take and take and we dont often give back, thus some are done for not personal growth, but growth as a whole, as one. Native American children at the turning of age often went out on their first quest. There they seeked their road from animal totems or spirits...

A long time ago the Busca de Vision was brought to Mexico and all around the world. Here in Mexico they have their tradtional sweat lodge, el tamascal and they use their medicine given to them from Mama Earth and the Wirikuta Desert. Hikuri, known by the Hiochol Indians helps visions during your quest manifest greater. This medicine, also known as Peyote is used in cermony and rituals and used by those ready to journey to another realm of awarness. Medicine helps manifest awarness and consciousness to those seeking it.

I was told about this Vision Quest about 10 days before today. I was told in vague what was going to be done there. It wasnt clear. Yet i decided to pray for the next 10 days that i would be able to attend. I knew i wasnt ready to climb the mountain, to go quest on my own. Or so i thought i wasnt. Yet i was able to participate as Apollo, Support to those questing. I had the opportunity to be a part of the small family seeking Mama Earth´s Messages. And thus i prayed that i could go. For it looked like i would not be able to in the beginning. My dear friend Teressa had plans to go and was going to take my other male companion along; not i. I had just been to a All women´s Santo Daime Cermony. Yet i prayed and in the end i went, while the other 2 stayed behind. I asked Mama Earth to go, and she gave it to me...she always gives doesnt she?

Thus i went with a friend of Teressa´s to go support his girlfriend. Tho i was already 7 days late... Tho it didnt matter, but this Quest was to go for 2 weeks. Where there would be first year Questers going up for 4 days, next you go up for 7 days, then onto 9 days, and finally finishing it with 13 days. (This is a 5 year process, 1st year there just to support) I arrrived just in time for a cermony, as the 1 week ¨Buscedores¨ Questers were comming down from the ¨Mountain¨. I arrived at night to an enourmous outline of a very familiar home, a tipi. Yet it was atleast 35 feet (mine at home just 16feet. I need to up grade:). In this lodge, the cermony took place. It was a medicine Hikurri Cermony. Here i journeyed for the first time with this medicine that Mama Earth gives to the desert. The cermony lasted all night. Till late morning and sleep didnt come till the following night. The cermony is hard to describe, but just picture a group of 50 people sitting around a fire in a huge tipi. Most had backrests, yet the spiral coninued inwards as their were so many people and they were unfortunate and had to sit up all night with no back support (as i did). The medicine immediatly began to be passed around, starting with the main Madrina - Medicine Women and spiraling out towards the other 4 Madrina's and then onto her their left to the buscedores (The people who just came down from the mountain) and around in a circle and spiraling within to the supporters. Mean while a rattle, sacred staff, and a man with a drum spiraled to each Spirit there, to sing a Medicine song and pass it on to the next. This process seemed to take hours and unfortuatly i cant describe it in detail anymore. Yet singing went on and on. The fire keeper kept to the sacred fire throughout the night. The medicine was passed around twice. And then there was the sacred tabacco that was passed imbetween elders who spoke alot. And before i knew it was dawn and the sun was rising. As the sun began to rise, we all went outside to sing to the four directions and sing to our brothers and sisters on the mountain. And afterwards we proceeded inside to finish the cermony with food. 3 large boat trays of meat, fruit, and corn were passed around in a spiral to everyone. I am leaving out so much detail here, yet there are too many words to describe everything and now i soley wish to hold everything in memory. When the cermony did end, after 10am, i went to do yoga and rest as i was exhausted and that afternoon there was a tamascal (sweat lodge) which filled me with an abundance of energy for the rest of the day that let me begin to meet people and start my week off at my first vision quest.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Full Moon - Monday 29th of March

Full Moon - Monday 29th

Santa Daime all Women Cermony with Tamsacal

You fight enternally within yourself wiht who you think you are and who you are. With body and Spirit. It is a constant struggle to the end if you cant except yourself. The Daime was strong...

And it led me in and out of an eternal battle all night. A haze of confusion, not sure what it was. It was constantly being over ridden with positivity. Laughter, i was smiling all night. I am Positive Light! No matter what Spirit knocks at my door, i beam of light. Thro out the night, as my experience just kept intensifing, my personal reality was teasing me. Daime, Ayuawaska is haulligenic. And i was defintaly seeing things. Things that you dont see in the physical body realm, only in spirit realm. My fantasy world was comming alive. Interestly tho, it was a dark fantasy world, filled with dark beings, yet i just observed and laughed at them. They were not taking a ride inside my physical body. I have control of my own journey. I have the power in my thoughts, in manifestation. I already know this and the Daime was just confirming it. I tried to make a lemon roll across the floor to me, yet it didnt work. I am confused why not. If i am a powerful Spirit of manifestation, why couldnt Spirit guide the physical lemon to the physical body? That is what i am working on, manifestation and the power of thought. I am not sure the answer, i suppose i just need to walk with Ayahuasca more to understand...

I asked from the journey ahead of time if my 7 Spirit Guides or any Animal Totems would come visit me. I believe i have control of the journey, yet i suppose i need more experience. I had confusing visions of wild animals and wild men. I felt as if i were them. And they were me. At one point i had fur all over my body and i wanted to scream out in growls and fearse animalistic sounds and behaviors. Was i a bear? Hermana Osa. Or am i a bear? Or just confused. A mix of all...

The whole roof vibrated in energy and was a ocean of waves and movement. It was beautiful. And the sky outside! That was just beyond words. The clouds were vibrant colors and jumping out of the sky with Sister Moon, Luna Llena (Full Moon) glowing bright and sending waves of florecent energy down to Mama Earth and healing all her creatures.

Ayahuasca gives you visual, intesifed eyes that see everything in a more beautiful state. More vibrant of color, shape, and form. It is as if it is so that each object projects out its own energy. This is how all life works and this is what Daime can teach you. To be able to see all creations filled with energy. An older women the next morning, a first timer was lost. Lost in the experience and was very confused. Bad energy and spirits clinging to her. I tried to talk to her, help her thro it. Talking can help, it did for me my first time. What she was having a hard time dealing with was the intensity of all life that she was seeing for the first time. The vibrant colors and energy. The colorful visions, that were appearing, that are just one, with all life. She wanted to know if it would stop...She was confused and what i have already learned and knew is that the feeling of all creations filled with energy and light is the ideal state to live and one hopes will never go away. Why would you want it to? Just because it is unknown. Yet couldnt she feel that power that came along with it? The power of knowing that the world is compleat beauty. Didnt she want to keep it forever? I do and i am learning to as i walk with Daime in life.

More experiences, moments, hours, nights, weeks are filled with the power of life, the beauty of Great Mystery. Positive vibrations and love are within me, making me a travelling ball of light. My journey in Mexico is beautiful and words can not describe it no more. I am walking the Red Road. El camino rojo.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Gibbious Moon - Thursday 25th March

Gibbious Moon - Thursday 25th of March

"All/each individual life form is an expression and contains Great Mystery. A part of Great Mystery lives in everything and knows no boundaries or limits. Every life-form has the will to co create with the Original Source in beauty and truth or ugliness and dispair.

Every life form has one common mission as well as their individual ones. Each life form is created to learn to be an equal contributor to the beauty of the whole and how you areg going to go about it. The mission of discovery is the Sacred Path of Beauty that allows every living creature to express uniqueness in a way that exemplifies harmony and truth.

The human race is the only one of All Our Relations that has lost this inner knowing about our purpose. The 2-leggeds have been give much assistance by Great Mystery since they must answer the questions of common mission before understanding the value of their individual missions. This assistance has come in the form of teachers who are All Our Relations.

All creatures are a part of Great Mysterys whole, just as every cell in the human body had different function and yet together those cells make up a carbon combustion unit that houses a Spirit with a unique identity. All human ideas are birthed from the Spirit inside the human body, fed to the brain, and then acted upon throught the will of total being. All ideas in Creation come from the Great Mystery, are gathered by Great Spirit, and then are used to feed the rest of Creation in oursellves or others in a human concept. If we acknowledge the limitlessness of Great Mystery, we must acknowledge that this life force is also a part of our makeup because we are created by that same Original Source."

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

First Quarter Moon - Tuesday 23 March

First Quarter Moon - Tuesday 23rd of March

I am being challenged daily on this journey. Challenged by other Earthlings, other viajeros (travellers). They challenge my belief system in debates. All unaware of what i am aware of. And what is that? It is knowing that we are from the stars. That we are decendents of past Mayan's who were killed before. We are all magical creatures and can do anything. Yes i have the power of manifestation. Power of thought. My hands can create anything I believe that i see part of my future life. I am manifesting Heaven on Earth. I will create a different place to live. A sancuary of like minds that are one with our Mother Earth and Father Sky. Their we will teach. Teach those who hear us and come to us. As a united family of soul brothers and sisters, as an Eco Village of self sustating suffiecency, with children and elders all at our sides, we shall grow as one. One Spirit raising consciousness thro our energies cascading over mountains, thro forests, across water. United energies spread distances and those who are ready can feel their vibrations and they will come. My dream is a reality, for reality is your imagination. For you creat your life, everything in front of you, you gave yourself. And with it, i shall have what i invision. It is not just fantasty, or perhaps it is. Yet than i am fantasy as well. These current tests of no fath, they can not bring me down. Nobody can push their reality on mine. Yet it is good to see, to hear the controdictions, the other points of view, the debates. But i know that i am here to fight spiritualy. Not thro breaking down the government, world powers. I am not here to help "my side/for the people" thro bodily form, with your hands. I am here with Spirit, to help guide those back to Spirit. To Consciousness. Once enough souls are here, we can change teh world thro prayer, manifestation, and positive light energy.


Saturday, March 20, 2010

Cresent Moon - Saturday 20th March (Spring Equinox)





Maya Descendent

Sut u Suutuk-The moment has arrived-to activate the new genetic codes of our DNA. This 20 and 21 of March 2010 we will work on activation of our genetic codes through the solar rays and vibratory frequencies of 528 Hertz in accordance with the mathematics of Orion.

With the arrival of each climatic season a change in our emotional biorhythm occur and new general connection of neurons. It is the ideal moment or time to emit frequencies of high vibration that will help our nation wakeup. Besides, we have the advantage that during these dates( March 20, 21) the pyramids and archeological zones will emit frequencies known as KUKULK'AN-QUETZALCOATL.

The town of San Miguel has 3 pyramids around it that are precisely aligned to transmit these vibratory frequencies all across Mexico; therefore we need to take advantage of this ancestral wisdom to potentiate the waking up of a new conscious.

Place: Rancho Hermita....going towards Guanajuato....before come to presa


Saturday March 20

-will start at midday with sweatlodge to purify our body, preparing us to transmit our vibrations. During the sweatlodge songs will be sung to elevate the resonance of our cells to a higher frequency.

-will work with the labyrinth which is in mathematical alignment with Venus. The course in this labyrinth will serve to activate all our energetic centers, bring equilibrium to our cerebral hemispheres and to increase our preceptual capacities.

-during the night we will participate in a candlelight vigil to connect with the new energies that are presently arriving on the planet and there will be a ceremonie lead by our brothers of the Bear Clan from the North. The Costanoan Rumsen Carmel Tribe is a tribe that conserves the Traditional Ceremonies of the Bear ad Eagle. It's purpose is to bring healing to the Mother Earth and the people.

Sunday March 21

-start the day with a meditation to activate our neurons in the direction of the sun

-every morning til noon, we will work with vibrations and forms from Orion

Keep in mind that this event is not a "spectacle show; it is an energetic work with the Maya knowledge/wisdom to wake up our consciousness. Therefore it is necessary to prepare:

Instruments of ultrasonic vibrations (ocarinas, tibetan bowls and bells, drums, digeridoo, wine cups

I attended this cermoney along with a group of my friends. I attended a conference led by Ac Tah the weekend before and during the week helped prepare for the gathering. I along with 3 women, helped build the rock Mayan Labrithyn. On Friday my best friend Carmelle, that i started the trip with here in Mexico, met up with me and my friends and on Saturday, my friend Emily arrived. Along with many familiar faces (Mexico is amazing, there is a serious link-chain of interconnection between those who are on the same RED Road...) we spent the weekend mediating and in prayer for the Americas to WAKE UP from their Dream State of Unconsciousness and Remember why we are here. To Wake up and help the Earth in her dying days. We all participated in Tamascals (Sweat lodges) and purified our bodys and spirits. As well on Saturday night, we were blessed with the DANZA DE LOS OSOS - Bear Clan to come and dance for us. There were 7 men dressed in compleat bear hides who danced cermonial to the beats of the earths belly, drums around a fire. This happened at midnight. We then joined in their dance and became one again with our Earth Mother. The energy of this weekend Cermoney was intense. We were vibrating at such high frequencys, it was incredible! On Sunday, waking up at sunrise we mediated and late that morning started to walk the labrithyn and pray. It was a five circular constrution, 3 paths to walk along. There were more than 5 inner circles as well inside the maze. Three circles held Tamascals. Later one was used for mediation and the other (as it was taken down) for yoga and movement during the prayer circle. Then there were 2 inner smaller circles, that held 13 Spirits making sound, creating music. As well there was a circle, where 13 women "who have visions" constructed a bamboo structure in less than an hour the day before. There the women sat in silence and meditated. And in the center circle, where the fire pit was, there were Shamans, Medicine women and men, the Bear Clan, and Ak Tah. Their they beat to the Earths rythum with drums and Chanting of sounds, vibrations, and words. During this their were hundreds surrounding the outer circle and stamping to the beat of the Earth in slow Dance, holding hands, and Sprillaling inwards toward the Heart of all Creation. Within the Labrinthyn the vibrations of Energy grew and grew to enouromous intensity. We were WAKING UP our Sleeping Brothers and Sisters. WAKE UP!

There will be another cermoney in June - Summer Solistice in Vera Cruz Mexico.

There was already a Fall Equinox Cermoney in Colima Mexico.

And including this the second, the Spring Equinox in San Miguel de Allende Mexico.

There are to be 3 cermonies in all that Ac Tah is running. The first was to wake up Mexico, the second to wake up the Americas, and the third to wake up the WORLD! For more information you can check out their webpage:

Monday, March 15, 2010

New Moon - Monday 15th March

New Moon - Monday 15th of March

Ac Tah- Mayan Descendent presents weekend conference on Mayan Beliefs and the coming of 2012!
I spent this past weekend participating in a conference talking about Mayan Prophecies. And dancing to the beat of the Earth´s Belly. Native American Drums and Dance, waking up our Spirit!

Waking up awareness and consciousness of our Mother Earth. Of her crying out in pain as we humans continue to harm her. Our Brother and Sister 4 legged still remember, are still aware. Why is it just us 2 legged, who think we are the rulers of the world can not remember? We can’t hear her crying? I cry as i see more concrete skyscrapers going up, forests of wise tree´s being torn down, and as the Earth trembles in quakes and kills millions. Why? Why cannot we wake up, listen to our hearts. Walk again one with spirit. Listen to our ancestors. Remember why we are here...

The world is about to change. We are at the end of the 4th cycle and are coming to the 5th. At every turn of cycle, the Earth quakes, speaks us to remember. Darkness will come. Darkness has come. Don’t you remember New York City over 5 years ago? Darkness. It will come again. And quakes will keep continuing as we sleep in unawareness of our Earth Mother. On the Winter Solstice of 2012 the planets will align with one another. Earth as the center point will be surrounded in the four directions by her neighbors. By Mars, Venus, Mercury, and Jupiter. The Moon and Sun will be above and below us. The intergalactic spaces are aligning. They will bring change. The Ying and Yang will shift. We have been in a Yang of Masculinity for this past cycle. We are about to shift into a balance. An equality of one gender, of one race. We are coming to a new age. We humans will decide where to take it. To let the shift pull into negativity or into positivity. We have the power within us all to do anything. If only we would all wake up! Walk with spirit, realize we are one. We have power to stop earthquakes and tsunami´s. We have the power of the world if we come together in harmony.

I am walking the Red Road

New Moon - I have arrived to a new Eco farm outside San Miguel de Allende. It’s a Beautiful single Women living in a small community of Permaculture living. There is no electricity, nor running water. They are living off the land, in the desert. Cacti surround me.

Fast forward, to the evening of the New Moon.
Again Cactus surrounds me...

Psychedelic, geometric triangles, circles, shapes, dimensions...
Light, a Teepee… A circle of brother and sisters around a fire, of RED. of LIGHT and DARK. Ying and Yang. Energies... A group of friends, who let me into their circle; which I am so thankful for, and there, in the tipi, within our mother´s womb, we drank medicine. We consumed ayahuasca in a legal Santa Daime Ceremony/Ritual. Madrina, Shaman, Medicine Women- Maria Terresa led it. There were 9 of us, gathered around a fire. We started off with one shot of Ayahuasca each. Mine was to be smaller as I wasn’t really part of the group, yet so thankful to be part of it this time. Next lead to Hale Mary´s and Fathers...Santa Daime is a Catholic Religion base/mix with our Earth Mother. This time it didn’t matter tho. I had finally been able to let go and it wasn´t important of religion. As all religions are the same, even as they differ, in the end they send the same message. As we began to sing in Portuguese about the Lord, my past judgments had vanished. I was singing about Love. Tho it helped I didn’t understand the lyrics when singing of sin. Overall i was thankful to be present and as well be around a fire, in a tipi again. Very quickly people began to feel the medicine running thro their bodies, some overtaking their physical bodies. The medicine was powerful this time. The eldest there, in his eighties i believe was the first to run from Spirit.
It continued, the two other men started to enter other space, another reality from what we believe we live in now. They had entered into their Spirit, yet were being tested and losing. They were losing control of their own Spirit and letting their own demons come in.
I was able to see the energy of the spirits. But more so, i felt them possessing my companions. You could see it, eye to eye, straight up fact, a reality whether you are taking medicine or not. These 2 men had their eyes rolled to the back of their heads and were talking to themselves. They were moving hands up and down, in conversation. They were fighting off the Dark verses Light. Negative verses Positive forces. One man was doing hand movements, which he later said he was shooting light beams out of his finger tips. He was fighting with light energy. He was fighting hard. He was cleansing his aura. Fighting his inner demons...
Yet this leads me to question - Are Spirits with us all the time?
Yes they are. Daime (ayahuasca) opens ones chakras, opens our souls, to become just Spirit. It teaches us to leave behind the body and be amongst other Spirits. And you chose whether they are good or bad ones. You can walk with your demons or be one with your 7 Spirit Guides. Thus it must be Spirits are with us all the time. We are fighting them to not control us. To not be in the Negativity of life. Are all spirits just inner demons, i wonder? Or are there bad energies, bad spirits walking earth among us? Do there exist more spirits than just our own? Are we only in touch with our own spirit guides or demons? I saw this man fighting a demon, one within himself. But the others in our circle, talked of seeing spirits. Light and Dark beings. This means when we become negative, mad, angry, sad, Spirits are able to enter us more easily and create more negative vibrations. Expanding one negative thought too many. This is why we must focus on light, on positivity. So spirits will guide us not deeper into negative vibrations, but more so into light. Into positive beings. Light Beings. To become one with Spirit all the time.
Spirits can guide us or manipulate us, we are the deciding factor on how we control our beings.

There were demons all around us, trying to possess us. One by one, circling and trying to enter into each of our bodies. I did not see the spirits. I was not there, in their space. Only laughter and happiness embodied me. I was keeping my space of enlightenment and joy. I was pure Light. Radiating Positive Energy from my Spirit. Drinking this medicine, i saw things. But more so, i felt things. I felt energy, i felt spirits, i understood all. This medicine opens us up to who we are potentially able to become. Nirvana talks about leaving the body, of becoming pure light and energy. Of becoming pure Spirit, and this is what we were for those short hours in the tipi. We were leaving behind bodies and becoming one. Many of the groups were fighting inner demons and they were fighting hard. Yet a few of us women were radiating pure light. Two men were possessed, 2 girls were being visited by spirits, laughing at them, inner demons telling them they weren’t good enough. Yet we were all Spirits, unaware of bodies, among dozens of more spirits. Visiting us, guiding us, some trying to take advantage of us. Tho I was just a body of light, my light (positive) energy cascading onto the others, my brother and sisters. They thanked me the next day. I was aware of my light, energy and hoped it was spreading out to the others as I focused on this. Focusing on keeping light all around my soul and aura. Holding the energy of the group. Sometimes i looked away, onto the others fighting, unable to not stare at those being possessed.
I couldn´t feel myself. My body. It didn’t exist. It was attached, but for an unclear reason. What was below my head was unclear. Arms, feet, stomach...what are they? Where were they? It was so difficult to focus, to understand that my feet were touching the ground, solid as a rock. Yet I wasn’t. Hovering, gliding, soaring... I was not quit grounded on Mother Earth, on Pacha Mama at all. Perhaps my body was, but it didn’t belong to me anymore. For it´s just a physical form and I wasn’t. I was disconnected from my body, forgot my face, name, who I quit was, for I was just there, in the now as Spirit. My Spirit guiding each step. I was one with all existence, for I was nothing but one particle in the air. Connected to my billions of brother and sisters. All Spirits, forgotten. For our bodies and minds control nearly all life. We have forgotten, we are unaware of how to become one and float with our Spirits. Let them guide us.

Ayahuasca is Medicine. Some may believe it’s a drug, and it is to those who believe this. To those who take it as Medicine, it cures you. Helps fight within... Giving lessons on how to walk more with your Spirit and less with your physical body. Daime teaches you how to be just Spirit. That is all you are. Yet you can learn to walk slowly with each step on your own, towards light everyday. Just being Consciousness is the first step. Are you ready to jump?

You may think I am talking of an illusion. Yet it was reality. I was in this farce. I was. And I was laughing thro out the possessions, thro out the journey on medicine. Nothing is what you think it is... Reality is what you make it!

¨All Creations are a part of Great Mystery´s whole, just as every cell in the human body has different function and yet together those cells make up a carbon combustion unit that houses a Spirit with a unique identity. All human ideas are birthed from the Spirit inside the human body, are fed to the brain, and then acted upon through the will of total being. All ideas in Creation come from the Great Mystery, are gathered by Great Spirit, and then are used to feed the rest of Creation. To limit the power of Creation in ourselves or others is a human concept. If we acknowledge the limitlessness of Great Mystery, we must acknowledge that this life-force is also a part of our makeup because we are created by that same Original Source.¨

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Balsamic Moon - Wednesday 10th March

Balsamic Moon - Wednesday 10th March

I said goodbye today, leaving behind the Bosque. An Eco Farm, dreams of a Village one day. Only till leaving did i really understand their main goal their. They do not explain it in the beginning, Brain and Marie the owners. Most likley that is because they are not really ever present truely in your experience at the Bosque. They have created a beautiful project, but have now faded into the darkness of their home. Spending all day inside on computers, in the cyber world, verses the world theyve created outside Mexico. The wonderful eco experiment. Watching and observing what will grow with earth water as its food. As they have rain catchment as their sole water source, they are not ready to use it all on just plants. Thus what they are doing, is planting, planting, planting. Planting everywhere, to see where plants, vegetables, fruit tree´s... will come up with Mother Earth watering her alone. It is a very beautiful experiment, only if we had been clear of this is the begininng, when arriving to the Bosque.

Hitchhiking, hitch a hikin, a hitchin. Pedir un Ride, Autostop, Hacer el dedo gordo.
I left with my friend Naima from France today, we left hikin outta the forest and onto the road to look for rides going up north to San Miguel de Allende.
First time since i have hitched for a while now. I lost my confidence to do it alone. Thought it was maybe i am getting older and not so CraZy... But i think its just ive been sheltering Fear on my shoulder for a while now. And woowwww its gone. That shadow of negativity has finally left from this last year of insight, learning, and emotion. And now im free. A free Spirit again.

It took us all day to get to San Miguel de Allende. I think we had over 6 or 7 rides to get there. It was a journey. And once we were there, we spent the next few days exploring the streets of Spain. I mean Mexico.... I´ve been taken back to my years in Europe. There are no dusty, rocky roads here. Its all coblestoned and i feel like im back in Spain. The articecture is beautiful, just outstanding. And full of life, each house vibrantly painted a different color. And the Catholic Church in the Center square is comparable to Europe´s finest in my opinion.

¨Great Mystery lives in everything, is everything, and encompasses everything in creation. It created all things in beauty, harmony, and interdependence. Each facet of Creation was, is, and will always be. The energy of Creation is self-regenerative and eternal.
Great Mystery created Great Spirit to direct the creative flows of the Uniworlds, which include all unvierses, all levels of consciousness, all understanding, and all life. Trying to figure out all the answers to the Great Mystery is foolish and impossible because we are a part of that infinite, progressive Creation.¨

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Last Quarter Moon: Sunday 7th March

Last Quarter Moon : Sunday 7th of March
Moon in Sagittarius – Fire
(Moon rises at midnight and sets at noon)

Soy mujer de la tierra
Brillando con luz de la luna
Mi corona son las estrellas
Y las diosas viven en mi

Soy la fiesta de la vida
Danzando con el universe
Mi alegria es medecina
Y las diosas viven en mi

Soy hermana de los nubs
Y todos compartimos
Que todos es de todos
Y todo viven en mi

Yo soy un arbol
Con raices en la tierra
Vivo con la lluvia
Y los animals viven en mi.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Dissementing Moon : Thursday 4th March

Dissementing Moon : Thursday 4th of March
Moon in Scorpio – Water
(Moon rises 1 hour later each night, after sunset and sets in morning)

We are all in this together
“We all come from the earth and return to her belly. We are all made of the same substance, same as the sea, the soil, the stars. Birth, growth, death, development, change, adaptation, transformation, evolution, it is all really just about recycling.
We breathe the same air as our cave-dwelling ancestors-inhaling and exhaling, exchanging carbon dioxide and oxygen with our plant relatives untold billions of times over the millennia. And the same holds true for water. We drink the tears of crocodiles and elephants. It rains, it pools, it evaporates, it rains. We drink, we pee. Again and again and again, in a grand scale cosmic round robin.
All borders and boundaries and separations are pure illusion. Each time we touch someone, we leave some particles of our skin atoms behind and pick up a parcel of new ones. Thus we merge, literally becoming part of each other. I am you and you are me and we are we.
We are all in this together, inextricably bound on our beautiful blue planet spinning through space. Remember that extraordinary photograph of Earth taken from the moon? We are one family, one community, one world, one living, breathing entity. And the sooner we realize it, the happier, safer and saner we will be.” -excerpt from Mama Donna Henes (we’moon)

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Full Moon: Sunday 28th February

Full Moon : Sunday 28th of February
Moon in Virgo – Earth
(Moon rises as the sun sets, and sets as the sun rises)

I can remember the full moon in February a year ago. It was a cold, frosty night in California. I was in a long Elven cloak, chanting Earth Mother songs, while lying out my crystals in my Faerie garden. Blessing the crystals I work with, with the magic of the moonlight. The moonlight of the Virgo, of me, of Earth. There was a magical mist that night, just as a year later it returns. This night as well, I danced to the moonlights glow and swayed in harmony with the Earth.
Just as last month, Jupiter has brought forth an opportunity, another Tamascal. Along with two other volunteers, my friends Mathois from Germany and Naima from France, we embarked on a spiritual journey thro time…Or just to another farm, outside Erongajacuaro. At this place, they actually hold Tamascal’s twice a month. Their sweat lodge was made of cement and was a beautiful picture of the Earth’s belly. It was a small ceremony, with around 10 people. The experience was quit different from my last, and I had a very hard time not comparing it. Naima was going thro the same as well. Fortuantly Mathois had never been, and thus didn’t have our problem. The actual Tamascal didn’t heat up for some reason to its fullest, and it acted quit like a mellow sauna. Before we had sweated head to foot for 3 hours and in comparison we only heated up for about 1 ½ hours. We did do some mantras within the Earth’s Belly and a Snake, Serpente almost took me within its grasp. Yet I never fully was entranced as before. What was very different, and hard to overcome was that it was quite Catholic/Christian as well. It was interesting indeed to see the combination of Hale Mary’s and chants of our Earth Mother, but overall it wasn’t exactly my place. Tho we had an amazing day anyways! I suppose especially for my company. That evening when we returned to the farm, we had a bonfire and ceremony for the full moon. We listened to music all night and danced to the beams of the moonlight. Connecting as one with the Earth. Watching clouds pass by in creatures of dragons, boats, and creatures of the old world. Sinking within, becoming one body, the Earth and I, we are all connected. The Moon dance and sang in peace and beauty. Words are nothing, nothing to what was. To the moment of the night. To the stars lite above as I slept by the campfire. The moon is within all of us. Within every women. We come from the moon, I am the moon. I am moonlight. The balance of the night of this Earth.

La tierra es nuestra madre, Debemos cuidar la.
La tierra es nuestra madre, Debemos amar la.

Nace la vida, en esta tierra sagrada
Nace la vida, en esta tierra sagrada

El fuego es nuestra hermano, Debemos cuidar lo
El fuego es nuestra hermano, Debemos respecter lo

Nace la vida, en esta tierra sagrada
Nace la vida, en esta tierra sagrada

El aire es nuestra hermano, Debemos cuidar lo
El aire es nuestra hermano, Debemos respecter lo
Nace la vida, en esta tierra sagrada
Nace la vida, en esta tierra sagrada

La agua es nuestra hermana, Debemos cuidar la
La agua es nuestra hermana, Debemos amar la

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Gibbious Moon: Wednesday 24th February

Gibbious Moon : Wednesday 24th of February
Moon in Cancer – Water
(Moon rises before sunset and sets before sunrise)

Bosque Village – This has been my work schedule…
Tierra de Encino (Raking Oak leaves, wheel barrel to “Barranka” empty creek bed and dump into for soil)
Basket Weaving Class (Local native art form of weaving pine needle baskets)
Market (Local Tuesday market with veggie farms, fresh food…)
Plant Seeds (Pine nuts, anise, and cactus)
Grafting (Cut Mazanillo tree’s to graft pear and quince tree’s)

Here is just an idea of what I have been doing at the farm, work wise. Cob is defiantly overall my favorite project. Working with mud to build houses is just the simplest yet extraordinary idea out there. We are using Red soil that’s quit fine (not too heavy in clay) with pine needles, as they are extremely long here (in replacement for straw) and sawdust; which they get for free at a local sawmill (replacing sand). While here I have been reading a book: The Hand sculpted House, to learn a bit more. Well, frankly a lot more. Tho since the first day we have had the 2 local Mexican Brothers (they work here) Chileano and Beto help guide us with mixing the cob. But still, if I want to build my future in cob, gotta learn bit more.
We haven’t done any other natural building here yet, tho an Earthship is in its beginning-beginning stage. Pounding dirt into the tires with a sledge hammer, I suppose I don’t have to do that right away. And I hope I might be able to learn some straw bale or earth bag building later on.
Besides working, I have been learning pine needle basket weaving, reading on cob and eco villages, yoga and hulla hooping, eating far too much, building fires and singing around fires, cards, and making new friends.

Brother Sun, Sister Moon-
If you want your dream to be
Build it slow and surely.
Small beginnings, greater ends
Heartfelt work grows purely.

If you want to live life free,
Take your time, go slowly.
Do few things, but do them well.
Simple joys are holy.

Day by day,
Stone by stone
Build your secret slowly.
Day by day
You’ll grow too, you’ll know heavens glory.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

First Quarter Moon: Sunday 21st February

First Quarter Moon – Sunday 21st of February
Moon in Gemini – Air
(The moon is visible from noon to midnight)

Destination: Bosque Village (Eco-Farm), near Yotatiro Pueblo, 20 minutes from Patzcuaro, on the lake, North Michocan
Mission: Wwoof Volunteer and to learn Natural Building

I left on the 18th from the beach to finally head into the mountains of Mexico for most likely a few months. I needed a breath of fresh air from sandy beach after sandy beach and now to have a few missions… This is my first Eco Farm that I am going to visit in Mexico. Here it runs a bit differently than most. It isn’t really a family run affair nor an eco village as their name clams. It is an American couple with a large piece of land in the mountains that host about 5-20 volunteers at a time year round. As volunteers we actually pay to stay and work here, unlike most Wwoofing farms, yet by the looks of their webpage, I was quite excited to check it out anyway. And as a plus, my Goddess friend Emily, from Sweden was already there. Thus from the 19th I will be here the next 2 weeks. My first day I arrived just before lunch and met all the other volunteers, thou not till the next day did I begin work with the others. On a daily schedule, we wake up before 8 to have breakfast in the Casita (Volunteers house with living room, library, bathroom, and kitchen) and begin work at 8:30. My mission is to learn about natural building while in Mexico and on my first day of work here, we worked with cob to build a cob house that is already half done. Yet we had no one leading us and only one girl who has a bit of experience with cob, trying to do her best to instruct the rest of us. Longer I stay here, the more I realize the lack of teachers and the majority of self teaching. As many complaints I have, along with the other volunteers, in general the place is great. What I am trying to do is focus on how my future community could run better. And with each day I know more with what I want and don’t want.


Amor, Amor, Amor, Amor, Amor
El mensaje es el amor
Amar tus Hermanos… (La Luna, El Sol, Los Arboles, Los Plantos, Los Animales, La Tierra Madre)
Como tu mismo
Y yo soy amor